The THING that HURTS a LOT

I thought covering myself with a hard shell will keep me from pain but, it hurts more. It hurts more even to think of it. It hurts a lot when I dream because it keeps on making promises which is only 0.0001% of reality. Dream is my lifetime rival, I should win over it or else it’ll go. You may think I gone mad but it is the reality. It’s better to go against the common path rather than, sitting in a corner and let your dream fade along the horizon.

Dreams are too damned poisonous. Ambitious dreaming can ruin even the best of a platinum alloy; it dulls its luster and even corrodes it. It is capable of turning fine lass into a whore, a princess into a tramp and worst …a loyal friend into a rival.

What awes me is that dreams can drive anyone beyond their limits. Dreams fueled by pure passion moves everything in harmony and if it is guided with principles, it spreads out as a most promising reality.

Then, I may say it’s beautiful to dream and make it a habit to turn it into a reality.

Dear Man

Why is this now? Why am I seeing these visions...The end?

I am afraid… too afraid even to think about it. How come I already feel the edge of everything?

If I could just comeback … will I choose another path? Why am I regretting already even though it is not yet the point to turn back?

Or neither am just wrong…that it is already the turning point but, couldn’t accept it nor even see it.

Or simply because I was blinded...

Grateful things this week6!

SUNDAY

• I wake up early even though I got little sleep
• I haven’t got any problem with the server
• I sleep earlier.

MONDAY

• Again no ecology for today!
• “Ibong Adarna” on the making and I got the role of the King.
• WE almost make qualms.

TUESDAY

• HE molds chocolates for me…gosh so sweet!
• It’s OUR 11^th “monthsary”!
• HE is too sweet!

WEDNESDAY

• I successfully processed my SSS ID.
• Mom and I had this so called bonding moment in “Monumento”.
• HE waited patiently for us.

THURSDAY

• I successfully submitted my final composition in “retorika”.
• We got a good time translating “Greatest Love of All” in “tagalong” language.
• Again no ecology today!

 FRIDAY

• Lucky I still got enough money for my fare today.
• I already inside the jeep when it rained…whoop! J
• I ate t apples straight in one sitting!

SATURDAY

• So lucky I’m not yet late…hahahah!
• I’m looking forward to work with my former classmate.
• Thanks God I got to fix the printer before I open the shop!

Another musings..

I’m a great fool to assume that love alone can solve the misunderstandings. I forget that there are such factors that exist side by side with love. Why must heartbreak exist? There are many ways to make a person to be stronger…but please don’t use love. Man is easily weakened by love. Love destroys a person’s principles and dignity. Why there is an uneven number man to women or woman to men and it causes much trouble of finding a pair?

Grateful for things this week 5

SUNDAY

•           I was relieved that “Jumong” is not harmed.
•          I did have many customers during the crisis hours.
•          I’m not too busy.

MONDAY

•         Our midterm in Filipino is in subjective form!
•          We do not have Ecology.
•          I learn a lot with fun in our speech communication!

TUESDAY

•          I’m not late.
•          I cross the street safely.
•          I’m already home when it rained.

WEDNESDAY

•         I wake up late!
•          I got my rest…whoa!
•          I perfect my manicure (in my opinion at least).

THURSDAY

•           HE buys me a box of DONUTS for peace offering.
•          WE rode in a train together for the first time.
•          I am happy!

FRIDAY

•          We have the early finals in our P.E.
•          We didn’t meet the “bad girls”.
•          I failed the exams in Psychomet but I’m still lucky to take the exams

SATURDAY

•          I’m not late though HE didn’t come as promised to fetch me.
•          I got to ride the jeep on time.
•          I received some group message from my classmates.

some musing...

Every one of us needs to grow - it’s a fact, ‘am I right?

The thing is...with SOMEONE? I doubt, here I am again doubting all the relationships and connection I made with people. I am always afraid that I may end up a loser, I hardly take risk. Searching for my identity?

Dissolving myself with emotion & passion, it serves me right to the point my identity is compromised. Who really am I? I can’t even trust myself can you expect me to trust others? Sure you’re not...Am I worth to be loved?   

In pain... all because of vain!

Vain of Vanity

Vain of Love

Vain of Loyalty

Vain of Dreams

Vain of Trust...

HAPPINESS - where are you? Why I do feel its absence every time I’m in need of it?

LOVE - Is my strength also, my weakness...

And, I

PRAY for TOGETHERNESS

...is the only boulder I can lean on. :)

Grateful things this Week 4!

SUNDAY

•  I got lucky to be helped by our technician.
•  My employer entrusted me his password.
•  I helped to calm down one of my customer.

MONDAY

• My female employer offered me a cheesy “pichi-pichi” for breakfast.       
• I arrive early on the General Assembly.
• We do not have Speech Communication!

TUESDAY

• We have quiz in economics…but I’m sure I answer it all….as far as I’m concern.
• We do not have Psycho metrics but I’m sad…’coz our professor got into accident, but She’s ok.
• We have quiz for Social Psychology… I’ passed & I have perform that day ( advertisement about ourselves)

WEDNESDAY

•  I wake up early for a job interview.
•  I didn’t get lost...whew!
•  Even though I’m not hired… at least I count it as an experience (why on world part time job in the Philippines is too difficult to find!).

THURSDAY

• Yummy! I ate the bread with peanut butter spread HIS mom made! 
• My mother wakes up just to prepare my breakfast!
• HE went to my school.

FRIDAY

• I didn’t get late!
• We lost but we didn’t get punished.
  
• I eat “Bulalo” courtesy of our neighbor :P

SATURDAY

• I meet my former proffer in the “jeepney”.
• We exchange some information regarding my batch mates.
• I was entertained well by the CSR of PLDT.